2010: A (Quick) Year In Review

Lots of things happened this year.

I started making a long list of all of the things I learned and realized that it comes down to just a few but important things:

1. Listening

great for my professional life, but also great for my personal life. I found out that there is always more to learn, especially with the people we think we know best. I gained a greater understanding of myself, my family and my closest friends because I really started to listen. I also made new friends, dated a little, led a retreat for high school juniors, and reconnected with old friends. I learned a lot from all of those relationships. One thing that sticks out still is that junior who said, "confidence is a choice, not a quality." Well yes it is. I remember that fondly now as I start to carve out my post-internship life.

Phew. I learned a tremendous amount by opening up my ears (and heart).

2. Balance

What can I say about that? It all comes down to balance. Balancing work and play, thinking and speaking, thinking and doing, talking and listening, planning and spontaneity.

3. Laughing

Sometimes you just have to laugh. Most of life's problems seem laughable. I've laughed my way through stressful times during my internship, conferences, an awkwardly funny trip through Ohio, a "wonderful" trip to Michigan (that one isn't funny quite yet.. soon though), and a HILARIOUS New York adventure. I am thankful for the people with whom I've shared that laughter and those situations.

4. Pacing

Things are often better enjoyed when savored. If you go through life and experiences at the right pace (often slower!), you often have fewer "regrets," catch those subtle details and for-go the need to apologize. It's like the rules of improvisation that I learned almost a year ago. If you go slow, don't hold on to the things that need to be let go, and don't ever stop... there's no need for apologies or regrets. Always move forward, but I am now determined to enjoy the ride.

5. Mindfulness

We grow up learning that we should be courteous and that "sharing is caring." For me, for some reason, it finally clicked as Mindfulness. I've spent so much time of my short 23.5 years being selfish, making my way through school and life, caring about professional success, and making my mind up about the world and people as I learn about them as it relates to me and my plan. I had a narrow focus... of course as I've grown up and let certain people into my life and saw certain people go out of my life, my scope has widened. But this year, it clicked. Mindfulness is being courteous, following through, thinking before speaking, doing the right and ethical things, taking other people's views and feelings into true consideration.... just being a good person but being aware of it. Each action has an intention behind it. Doing something because "its something that I should do" is not really a good reason. I end up "should"ing all over myself.

I think its a lot to think about at first- each situation in life calls for something different right? We made 80,000 decisions a day (starting with "Do I get out of bed now... or hit snooze one last time?). Each decision we make in the day leads to another decision and then another decision. Practicing a little mindfulness each day grows into a habit and gradually, requires less thinking and conscious awareness. You start acting, thinking and relating on a different level.

That is the secret (my secret, at least). All of the outstanding individuals I know are some of the most mindful and courteous people I have ever met: My ITD, my boss from the Fair, ST, co-intern, parents, family, friends.

I proclaimed 2010 as "The Year of an Attitude of Gratitude".... I learned a ton and lived quite a bit. Laughed and cried. Found some great ice cream parlors, made new friends, lost a wallet a couple of times, even took a jacuzzi bath in a staircase. What a fabulous year. Lots of growing. I feel very thankful for everything that occurred even the "bad" stuff. :)

2011... We'll see how this one shapes up. I'm thinking "2011: Mindfulness Matters"...? Hmm... sort of catchy. I'll keep working on it.

Gearing up for a New Year

I've been letting the big news of my employment sink in and also enjoying the holidays which meant ignoring my blog for a week or so.

Currently I'm house/dog sitting the fabulous Ms. Peaches. We've had fun times together including staying out of the rain, taking naps and playing ukulele. Turns out that she is not fond of the sound and rudely leaves the room. Today I'm going to work on some music therapy repertoire for my session on monday! Read a bit and hang with peach. I also am starting to think more about regional conference in April. My presentation proposal was accepted! I'm keeping busy.

Christmas was fabulous. We had fun and games christmas eve and delicious homemade raviolis and Christmas Day I fixed a lamb roast for my family that turned out to be extremely tasty! We don't do much for christmas any more, but I did receive some car mats for Knoxie from my parents. Thank you!

I start my new job on Monday, I can hardly believe it! This time last year I was packing up boxes, setting up a blog and getting ready to move to new york for my internship. My how this year flew by! It was jam-packed too! After 2010, I am excited to see what 2011 brings.

Some people really get into the whole resolution thing but I find that if I make them, I break them in like two weeks. But I find that if I decide to do small things that I am more successful. That means setting the bar real low! I love that. There are smaller things that I can do to work up to the big things and I will end up being more successful... like getting into the habit of eating regular meals (and less crazy snacking) or upping my exercise by doing something small everyday--- like going for a brisk walk or doing a bit of yoga- switching it up so I don't get bored. To me those are smaller things to focus on, but perhaps with a big reward. Maybe its psychological, but it works for me.

Soo... my tentative "goals" (I'm still fleshing them out) for the year 2011:

1. Music therapy stuff - maybe create one solid connection and start working on a possible contract or position. To me that's obvious and something that I'd do anyway.

But its good to write it down, then I become accountable.

2. Keeping better track of my life (especially finances, now that I will have some of my own regularly)--- you know.... being an adult and getting a little more organized. That might mean less Bevilacqua impulse shopping!

3. less sitting around. less snacking. more moving. :) I think having a job will help with that, giving me more to do and think about in the week. And it will give me more structure which means I can make time for more exercise.

I really want to take a kick boxing class but I think I'm going to wait to get something like a gym membership or signing up for classes until my income is more steady. Or find a gym buddy. Ty and I talked about that. I think its easier to get motivated when you have someone to go with. We'll see what happens. For now I love my yoga videos and occasionally (although becoming more frequent) taking it to the streets for a jog/walk.

What are some things you might be thinking about for the new year?

BIg News!

Its official.

I signed a contact today to be a independent (sub)contractor for a music therapy company (technically this woman) based in the east bay. She called earlier this week to offer me the position and I officially signed the contracts this morning! I will be providing music therapy in a few settings which results in just a few hours a month (10-12 hours) in some east bay-ish locations (Looks like I'll be spending a bit more time in palo alto). Its just enough to make some money, get some real life experience for my resume and still have time to work on other placements that are closer to home.

I am very excited. I start in January.

In the meantime... YAHHOOOOO.

Christmas Parties

I am christmas party-ed out. I am christmas open house-d out.

how exhausting.

Although I've been described as "precocious," I noticed how introverted I am this weekend. I had a bridal shower to attend on Saturday and 2 (technically 3) christmas open house parties yesterday. I made it to 2. But what I noticed was how draining it can be (for me) to be around a ton of people that I don't know. Its exhausting. It didn't stop me from attending the open house parties--- Every year my friend Aimee's mom make the best chicken salad sandwiches for their annual christmas tea. They are the best.

Anyhow, I like small get-togethers with people that I know. Then I can be precocious. Most of the time at big parties, I just feel a little awkward and a little overstimulated with chatter and a ton of people. I guess it is no secret that I love to have my alone time to recharge my batteries. That is probably the major reason why I loved living by myself throughout my Arizona school stuff. And I am aware of my "personality type" through the Myers-Briggs test, you know the four letter code ( INTJ all the way). But I guess I became a little more aware of the whole "I" factor this weekend. I thought that was pretty interesting.

Sissy arrives in CA today! Yahoo. I'm going to scoop her up from the airport this evening!

And the category is....

Wedded Bliss.

I attended a wedding shower this afternoon. It was a lot of fun. Thankfully we played few games none of which involved toilet paper dresses.

A quick update.

I heard back from the school where my friend's mom works. The assistant executive director was impressed with my resume and cover letter (I wrote a fantastic cover letter) but unfortunately they do not have opens at this time. She is going to keep my information on file. We are however, working to schedule an inservice for all of the staff. I've got some fabulous ideas. My hope is that they see my inservice and decide that they have to have me, no matter what. :)

I met with a friend of a friend who has been in the education field for many years. We talked about my options and what special education looks like here in the bay area. It was helpful to meet with this woman and she gave me a whole new list of places to look at. She also basically said that I need to get a masters in education or music education and perhaps look into other credentials. Sigh. She also suggested applying for jobs as an instructional assistant for kids of special education. I don't know if this is something that I'd really like to do.... but I see the value in it.

For now, I am enjoying the holiday down time. Its hard to look for job opportunities and things when everyone is wrapping up for the year. We will see what the new year will bring.

Sissy comes home monday yahoo! And I'll be house/dog sitting Ms. Peaches the bulldog next week. I am looking forward to both things.

Dad says....

that I'm behind on updating. Its only been a few days.

not much to report really.

The christmas tree is officially up and decorated. It is epic. I'll post a picture of it soon.

I attended the funeral service of a former teacher this weekend. She was battling cancer for a few years now and she was a teacher that I was close to. I was even asked to read out of one of her favorite books at her service. I prepared my reading and all, but I didn't prepare anything else to say. The other people reading at the service had wonderful things to say and I just read from the book. I felt pretty bad, like I let my teacher down--- just as I felt that I let my teacher down when our plans to get together fell through (just a few days before she passed). I ended up writing her a letter after the service so that I could say all of the things that I wanted to and "should" have said at the service.

As I have learned throughout this year, writing is certainly an outlet for me that works. I haven't quite decided what I will do with the letter yet. But I immediately felt better after putting the pen to paper.

Now I am in full holiday reading mode. I just received a book about music therapy, sensory integration and people with autism. Its a fascinating read so far. And I like the author. I had to read a book by the same author for school once. Basically, people with sensory issues relating to spectrum disorders have such a hard time processing sensory input because the sheer amount of information creates a fear/anxiety spiral physiologically. That prevents any other information- sensory information and thus typical functional behaviors- from moving past the emotional part of brain to the neo-cortex (the part of the brain that is responsible for thinking and reasoning). Sooo their "atypical" behavior is a result of fear and the flight, fright, or fight response. That means that therapy is aimed at calming the senses so the brain can adequately process all the information coming in. Phew. I think that's how it works.

I do love my holiday reading.

This is also shedding new light on spectrum disorders and will help if/when I get some meetings with organizations that service this population. Nerd alert.

BTW, my website is up and running. My sissy did a wonderful job. She is a whiz, for sure.

This week is sort of uneventful. I have to get my oil changed. And I have a meeting with a friend of a friend who wants to talk about music therapy and starting my career. Also, some groups from High School will be performing at Christmas in the Park on Friday night. I think I'm going to go up and catch some performances. I do love the Mexican Hot Chocolate they sell there.

This weekend is rather full. Friday's meeting, possibly caroling at the VA, Christmas in the Park and Mom's office christmas party. Saturday - bridal shower for Julie's sister. Sunday- annual christmas tea/open house at my friend's house in San Jose. And Sissy comes home Monday! Yahoo!

Goodnight moon.

Meeting

Today I met with the person who is looking to hire a music therapist and observed a session. It was great fun. I observed a session at a retirement community. The clients were fabulous. They were active and singing and playing. One lady told me to take care of myself... right after she asked me if I knew what she did with her husband. Then she told me "don't feel bad if you don't know. I don't know what I did with him either." What a hoot.

The whole situation seems really positive. It isn't official and I haven't signed anything. We will continue to see what happens.

It'd be a great way to get some real life work experience and work a few hours and save up some money.

In the meantime, I'm up at Ty's and we're watching trashy daytime television. It's wonderful.

Lessons

I'm getting on the lessons train here. I'm starting up piano lessons with a kid who lives down the street. I am actually getting kind of excited about it. I got some books and materials and am thinking about the best way to get started with note names and patterns and all that.

I learned by way of M&Ms. My teacher used to put M&Ms on the keyboard for note names... and then I'd get to eat them.

Boy, that explains a lot.

Woo hoo!!

I just got off the phone with someone who is looking to hire a music therapist in the greater bay area. After discussing my resume and the type of work to be done, this person invited me to lunch and observe a session later this week. It seemed positive, although I am a little hesitant to spare all the details as I'm sort of superstitious that way.

We'll see what happens!

Christmas Cheer

My christmas party gig last night went really well! It was a ton of fun and they seemed to enjoy the music. I'd call it a success.

Anyhow, as I awoke this morning from my peaceful slumber, I heard the sound of christmas music BLARING from the living room. I guess Christmas is here in our house. Aside from the music, there is one more tell-tale sign the season has arrived here in our house: Hanging Ornaments.

Mom and Dad got an already decorated christmas tree at an auction this weekend in support of Kids Discover Arts! Its a nice tree- for a fake one. We always get a big real tree. Always.

Mom and Dad decided to assemble this thing in the dining room this year. Its a lovely addition to the decor around here. Hanging ornaments is THE official sign that christmas has arrived and that "christmas cheer" is officially in season.

And by christmas cheer-- I mean phrases like, "NO! Don't hang that one there" and "No no, you see that hole there between that green thing and the dangling thing" and "This is so stupid. Who put the lights on this thing?" and "Really? No. That looks too gawdy" or "Geez these will look great stashed around Sissy's room." Tis the most wonderful time of the year!

Happy Holiday season everyone!

Getting Connected

I had lunch with an MT in Palo Alto yesterday. It was great sit down and talk with him about his own journey and his private practice. He says he hears of a few opportunities now and then and will pass some things on to me when/if they come. Other than that, he invited me to that group of MTs in the area that get together a few times a year. I guess there is a meeting in January. We'll see how that goes. I felt pretty good about getting connected and I think that is going to be a good thing. He is getting pretty established in the area and has a few feet in the doors of some places. I spent the rest of the afternoon in Palo Alto with Ty, Nicholas and Peaches. I was lonely for all three of them. They have been out of town for three weeks and I am very happy that they are home.

Tonight I am playing a christmas party gig. I have to finish up my final preparations for that. Load everything in the car and get ready. I just don't know what I will wear.

Gotta get going. But everything here is moving forward, just putting along.

Pictures!

Here's a few snippets from our Thanksgiving

Dad's beautiful turkey.

It was sooo delicious

Mixing drinks! -------->

<----- I'm helping. Sort of.

My Sissy didn't make it home this year. Her presence was missed. That's her usual chair. We thought this would be appropriate.

That's it.

New development today on the job front. I'll post about it a little later. I don't want to talk about it too soon. :)

I was lazy and didn't make my cold call today. Oops. But I did write a cover letter for my maybe upcoming meeting. I felt productive despite chickening out on the phone call today. I did however go down and help my mom decorate the office christmas tree.

Meeting with a MT guy in private practice tomorrow for lunch. I'm looking forward to it.

Preparation

Tomorrow I am going to make my first "cold" call.

Through some other contacts I was referred to an organization in the area that provides services to people of all ages with developmental disabilities. One of their campuses even includes "creative and performing arts buildings." I am very curious about what that means exactly and if they are using those buildings in the wide array of services they provide.

So I did a little research and I decided to give them a call tomorrow and find out more. They are looking to hire another therapist (speech/language) at this time, but maybe they are interested in what music therapy can offer their clients. I'm not sure. But it can't hurt to give them a call.

That's on the docket for tomorrow.

I have another phone call to make tomorrow to a music therapist who has been in this area for a while. I have a few questions for her. I've met her a few times at conference and she remembered who I was, so it will be nice to get connected.

I also have to finish up some materials.

Friday I am meeting a different music therapist for lunch. He just launched his private practice, so I'm sure he will be an excellent resource. He's already referred me to an email list and "support" type group of MTs in the area. I guess they meet a few times a year to get together and talk about how things are going, share resources etc.

Tonight I am headed up to my high school to catch the first christmas concert. My friend's sister is singing tonight and his mother invited me up for the concert and dinner afterwards. The mother has been instrumental in passing along my resume at her school and possibly getting a meeting with one of the directors there. I'm still waiting to hear about that. Anyhow, it will be nice to catch a concert.

I am finding that this process requires a lot of patience. A lot of waiting. I did happen upon a whole new list of organizations in my search today, so I have more research (and I'm sure cold calls) to do. I'm making my list. Checking it twice. Just like Santa.

So onward patience... I wonder if I can buy that somewhere. Perhaps I'll add it to my christmas list. Right under the shuffleboard set. :)

Oooh Christmas

please christmas don't delay!!

http://www.uncommongoods.com/product/tabletop-shuffleboard

this would support my new fascination.

Hey... its a sport, right?

Wedding Registries

One day while I was working at the SD County Fair, I stormed into Holly's office and said:

"If I had a blog where I wrote about how I see the world, today's topic would be all about wedding registries."

Today's post is about wedding registries. When I said the above statement, I was getting ready for 2 weddings that summer. It was my first experience with a wedding registry and gift buying and it drove me bonkers. Some close friends are tying the knot early next year and its time to start perusing their registry in prep for the big day.

Nevermind that many of my friends my own age are engaged, getting married, and/or already married. Nevermind that topic. :)

Wedding registries make me absolutely crazy. I understand its for the couple as they start their life together. They need a set of plates and serving dishes, a meat tenderizer, a stainless steel garlic press and muffin tins. What really gets me is how much you have to pay.

You mean I could pay $60 for a cheese board? $15 for an ice cream scoop? $40 for a pan (for a couple that doesn't cook)? All the way up to... $299 for camping gear (how often do they go camping)? how much for luggage?

Holy Toledo. Side note: I never understood the saying Holy Toledo. I've driven through the heart of Toledo (an accident but it happened). It isn't very glamorous.

In the meantime, I've decided to go with something a little more original, useful and not on the registry. :) That's how I roll.

A Little Philosophy

We had a nice Thanksgiving and wonderfully delicious dinner and time with family. In the meantime, I've picked up my music therapy books again. I'm getting materials ready just in case I get that interview and in addition to playing and practicing, I'm trying to keep my mind sharp. So I picked up this book.

"The Inner Nature of Music and the Experience of Tone." It's a collection of lectures by Rudolf Steiner - a philsopher who greatly influenced Paul Nordoff's idea of tone and (as I'm finding out) music therapy, use of the voice in therapy and composition.

its a fabulous book. some of its a little out there in terms of what he thinks about existence and consciousness. But the stuff on tone is amazing. Anyhow, I read this lecture today where he talks on and on about vowels vs. consonants.

Vowels, he says, is the connection to the spirit, to the experience of the more primitive stuff- raw emotions

Consonants are like the body, the instruments.

The vowels (or breath) pushes against the consonants in everything- they go side by side but they also dissolve into one another. He also says that when you go from earthly being to something greater, the consonants disappear and you are left with vowels, with one song, one universal song. It reminded me of a sort of Music of Spheres kind of idea. He says that speech is like the consonant and it derived from singing (the vowel)-- so that our original form of communication happened in song. So when we sing we go back to communicating on the level of vowels, of spirit, of beauty, of the aesthetic, of the raw emotions. Its a longing of wanting that spiritual connection back. Similarly, Nordoff emphasized the importance of creating melodies that mimic speech- in intonation, pitches and rhythm! pretty cool.

"When man speaks, he makes use of his body: the consonant element in him becomes the sculptural form of the body; and the stream of breath, which does not pass into solid, sculptural form, is used by the soul to play on this bodily instrument."

Anyhow. He brings it all together at the end (at which point I got really excited) and says, "if on extracts from the human being the breath, which the should makes use of in order to play on the instrument in song, ... the art of music, of song, arises." This made me think. The consonant or the body is like the container for the spirit (much like the therapeutic relationship is a container). The breath, the song is that direct connection to something greater. So I'm pondering on this and keep reading and he says this:

"Two types of spiritual beings fuse their activities. One brings forth and shapes the instrument, the other plays on the instrument." FUSE! FUSION! a bringing to together of the instrument (body) and player (soul/person). Sort of like INTEGRATION --- like what Nordoff and Robbins say (in their first book!) that in music the person becomes organized and integrated in their musical activity and it becomes the doorway to something more, to a peak experience, to a new awareness of themselves, a sense of accomplishment, a new connection.

I got really excited about that. That breathe and spirit connection to the body (the here and now) in someone that is wanting that (for whatever reason or goal) that's the beauty at the core and at the center of being! Thats when we see a client come alive in the music. He/She is connected to what/who they are on that deeper "more primitive" essential level.

Whoa.

Then I got more excited because as I was thinking of that quote: "Two types of spiritual beings fuse their activities. One brings forth and shapes the instrument, the other plays on the instrument." FUSION. Two Types of beings fuse their activities. Maybe it exists on a more "literal" level in music therapy. Maybe the role of the therapist is the being who brings forth and shapes the instrument (the person, the experiences) and the other who plays is the client.

That means that its our job to create opportunities for the player to play and get the most out of their instrument. Its our job to create opportunities for the player to discover all of the sounds and manners in which to play. Its our job to create opportunities for the player to find delight and joy in fusing together with another person, and additionally, fusing together with the music. It says nothing about the two beings making each other do a certain thing. Its simply a fusion, an opportunity, a moment. You can't make a client choose to fuse or choose to change or choose to try something. its ultimately their choice. BUT we can constantly bring forth opportunities and shape moments that are conducive to developing the instrument, song, client, moment.

Man. this is cool stuff.

Ravioli Fest 2010 pt. 2

Okay.

Spread filling on one half of the dough. You fold the other half over.

The small rolling pin is the form. That makes all the little squares.

That's about 160 ravioli (give or take a few).

The special cutters seal the edges and voila.

We then place them on cookie sheets lined with parchment and pop them in the freezer.

We rolled 6 batches and made about 1,050 ravioli. It is exhausting and a ton of work, but it is completely worth it!

Ravioli Fest 2010 pt. 1

The set up:

The cuisinart, tons of flour and some other stuff. We made 6 batches.

Usually my sissy makes the dough. It's her job and she always makes perfect dough. It took us a couple of batches to get the balance just right.

The other part of the set up includes the ravioli board and pins.

The board was my grandmother's and it came across the isthmus on the back of a donkey a really long time ago.

I got the full story from Dad--- its a seasonal favorite. Just ask.

the dough has to rest a while before you can roll it out.

Rolling it out is more of a stretching process. you have to get the dough big enough to put stuffing on half of it. You stretch it out around the long rolling pin and roll the pin (haha rolling pin) to make the flour fly. I'm not sure the exact reason, but its pretty awesome.

Check out this beauty. I did this one.

My Day at the VA

Hey y'all. (That was in my best Paula Deen voice)

Today I observed a music therapist at the VA in Menlo Park. My Aunt's friend currently volunteers for the music therapy group there. And boy, is it a hoot! The vets were fabulous and there are some characters in the group. It was nice to see music therapy in that form and it was nice to see the vets enjoying themselves, singing and participating in the conversation. I had a lot of fun interacting with them.

I had a chance to have lunch with the music therapist and talk with her about how she got her job, where she started, school and difference in thought. We do things very differently. She was really nice and actually has a connection to another music therapist that I plan on meeting with next week! Small World around here apparently. It made us both laugh.

Speaking of laughs... there are some funny music therapy comics out there. Placebo Domingo... hardy har har.

The big ravioli day pictures will be coming up soon. We've been busy here in our house.

Coming soon!

New Motivation

Okay. So.

Its been a busy few days.

I met with a family friend and from that got a ton of ideas, a few more contacts, and a brand new degree of motivation. I really need to start building my network around here, starting with music therapists in the area. They have been hard to find and there has to be a few more that are hiding. I've been working on that. I've emailed a few people to see if they would be available to meet and/or talk. So far, I've gotten 2 yeses. That's a good thing.

My sister is building me a website for all of my therapy stuff--- and eventually my piano stuff. I want people to search for music therapy and have my name come up. Its going to look really nice. Yesterday (while I was listening to the Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Audio Book) I did a ton of copy to send to her. I've been looking at websites I like and websites I don't like. I have to admit, that has been fun.

I am however, looking for a great domain name for my website. Something with "music therapy" in it- like a business name kind of thing. So far the best idea I have had is "laurenisawesome.com" Apparently that isn't appropriate. A lot of people use their name like Lauren Bevilacqua Music Therapy Services... BUT how easy is it to misspell bevilacqua? KB was thinking maybe: laurenmtbc.com But we were also concerned about random letters....

So I am officially opening it up to you all at this time. Calling all of you creative people out there!

One other thing- I am very close to getting a meeting at a private organization that provides education for kids with disabilities. I got connected through my friend's mom who is currently a teacher there. She took one of my cards last weekend to bring into work and yesterday (!) I got an email back asking for my resume. I guess this place is interviewing a few candidates in the next few weeks. I am hoping to just score a meeting with the organization to show them my stuff and trying to remain optimistic, but realistic about the whole thing. So happy thoughts that I might get this meeting/interview.

I accomplished a lot yesterday- my room is clean and laundry is just about done. Its made a difference in my productivity (case in point- yesterday) and I feel like I am better able to take care of business. After all of my work yesterday, I am celebrating this morning by taking my dad to go see Harry Potter. Hmm... maybe its more for me. :)

Have a wonderful Friday and relaxing weekend!

"A Little Bit Everyday"

I came up with this (not) new little motto while I was eating my eggos this morning. I have to be doing something- even just a little bit- every day to prepare for meetings, creating materials, assembling marketing packets. If I do that I will feel like I am moving forward or at least contributing to my job search/creation. Yesterday I worked on my marketing packet which changes, depending on who the recipient is. I have drafted a few cover letters and am hoping to get to the post office today to send at least one out.

I also anticipate straightening up my room today and laundry- two things that I absolutely need to do that will help with the productivity monster. And if there is time and it isn't 80 degrees, I sort of feel like baking. We'll see what happens with that.

An official item now:

I have officially sent my formal response to the Las Vegas opportunity. And I have officially turned down the position.

It seemed silly to turn down a job, especially now, but it is not the right time for me to move out of state. Although I loved being in the facility and loved working with the clients, it just isn't the right time. I am glad I have the experience of interviewing somewhere. That has been extremely valuable.

So I will be home for a while.

You probably knew that because I bought a car.

I do have a brainstorming type meeting set up for this week AND I am hoping to hear back from a private school in Santa Clara. One of my HS friend's mom works at this private school and she offered to set up a meeting for me. I feel like things are indeed happening. Some are directly within my control and some are not. That's okay. I'm just trying to keep my eyes opened for all sorts of opportunities.

My vision is sort of changing for my future. I always thought that I'd go into academia after getting advanced degrees. But now I'm sort of thinking about creating an internship, like the one I experienced. Also, I can really see myself being a sort of consultant type of person, creating jobs in the area and finding MTs to come fill them (while maintaining my own caseloads). That's quite a ways in the future- I still have to find a job for myself, but I could see myself doing that sort of thing. For some reason, I have not heard much about MT in the bay area and that should change. I think I can contribute to change that. Obviously I have a ton of ideas, but I am taking my time and trying to do things the "right" way. And one thing at a time... like find a job.

In other news, I received word yesterday that a former teacher of mine passed away. She'd been battling cancer for some time now and passed away Friday afternoon. I am definitely saddened by this news. She was an influential teacher in my life and we remained close even after I finished school. I am more upset because I was suppose to go see her last week and we never connected. I'm feeling like I definitely missed out. I was asked to read at her service in December and I am happy that I will be able to do that.

Well got to get moving so I can do my "little bit" for the day!

new new new

I am in love.

Unexpected things...

Today began in an unexpected way.

Dad and I decided to hit the Ford dealership to start looking at possible cars for me. I need a car with an actual roof (all of our cars are convertibles) and four doors. There needs to be space enough for my keyboard and accessories for gigs and things.

I walked out of the dealership with a new car.

I made my first adult purchase of a car. I spent more than I had anticipated, but the money has been worth it. Its a used 2010 Ford Flex Limited (with little mileage). Its got tons of bells and whistles... so I got pretty much one of the top models for the basic model price. It has voice activated navigation, bluetooth for my phone (which can also be controlled by the voice activated system), usb plug in for my ipod, 911 assist, and a way to control LED lights in the cup holders and below all of the seats (even in the back seat). It seats seven and has PLENTY of room for all of my stuff. It's actually quite long and wagony- but I love it. It's slate blue. You can also watch a DVD on the navigation screen when the car is in park. Oh it also has a AC plug in case you need to charge your computer. And when you put the car in reverse, there's a camera in the back that shows you where you're going. And of course, seat warmers.

I am very excited. Now I just need a job in order to pay myself back.

On the job front, there are a few more opportunities presenting themselves, so we'll see which ones materialize. I am working on it. It feels like more things are coming together.

Pictures tomorrow

Alright, let's get this thing going

After my "hangover"esque weekend I have decided that its now time that I get up off my butt here and start working my angles and connections. I've had a nice vacation, but it is time. It is amazing what opportunities come up when you start looking for them, making them happen.

I'm going to talk to a few people in the area and see what happens.

But yesterday! Wow. Yesterday was incredibly productive. I worked all day. I wrote a couple of cover letters, drafted my letter in response to the Las Vegas opportunity, created another document for a little marketing folder, read some information on third-party reimbursement (which is perhaps one of those most important things a MT could learn about--- you know, how to get paid and bill insurance and codes and what forms to use--- its very confusing) and did quite a bit of research on some other agencies.

Today I am finishing up those letters (its good for me to take a step back), watching morning TV and having dinner with two of my friends from high school. We're doing these "girls nights" often--- its turning out to be almost once a month. Its been nice.

Going into my Boston trip I felt miles and miles away from anything. I wasn't quite living in the past (but I was certainly revisiting high school memories and people), I wasn't quite in the present, and I wasn't really living in the future (with no certain plans). It was good to get away and take a vacation, see my friend, get grounded and get the sort of motivation I needed to get going with my life. I don't feel so aloof and detached and I have more direction. That part feels good- much MUCH better.

I've finished my coffee and watched Kathie Lee and Hoda try and do an obstacle course-- that means its time to get cleaned up and on with my day.

Happy Veterans Day everyone.

Jet Lagged

Oh man. I am actually (perhaps for the first time ever) jet lagged. I was in bed at 7:30pm last night, after dozing off about 7p and woke up this morning at 5:30 and ready to go.

After a big breakfast and Big cup of coffee, Dad and I ventured to the DMV to see about a replacement license.

I am happy to report that I only had to wait 20 minutes and I am equipped with a temporary license until my new one arrives in the mail. thank goodness.

I can drive places now, as long as I don't need to buy gas. :)

Awesome.

Boston Weekend 2010, Pt. 2

Saturday. Julie and I woke up at 5a to catch the 7a Chinatown Bus for NYC. We ordered tickets online and ended up with a four seater towards the back of the bus. Perfect for putting our feet up.We rolled into Chinatown around 11 and made it to Times Square for tickets. We got great seats to La Cage Aux Folles starring Kelsey Grammer (Frasier!) and some other people. We sat in Times Square and had a snack while we waited for the show. It was brisk there, but sunny. The perfect day. We even navigated the subway from Chinatown to Times Square. We were excited and very proud of ourselves for A. planning a fun day and B. getting there in one piece.

The show was fabulous. The dancers were amazing. It felt great to be in a theater. After the show and the never ending search for a usable restroom, we connected with Julie's ex. We all went to high school together and they remain good friends. I've never really spent much time with him and I think Julie was a little nervous to see what would happen. It ended up being so much fun. He works right in the city so it was nice to walk with someone who knew where they were really going. We had a fabulous dinner at this little place near Rockefeller Plaza and we all ended up being great company together.

Now we should have (get that? should.) gone back to China town to see about maybe catching an earlier bus. Instead we decided to see the apartment where this guy lives.

He's got an incredible view of the crystler building. Before we knew it, it was 9:30 and we had to hustle to make our 10p bus back to Boston.

Look mom! We're gonna make the bus!!! -->

.....Well. We didn't end up making the bus.

Oops.

Look mom! We didn't make the bus.---->

No problem. Julie's ex came with us to China town to make

sure we were safe. Thank goodness he did. We probably would have called him for help if we had missed our bus. The fact that he was there made it easy and it was very nice of him to accompany us to make sure we made it safely. He was really the hero of the evening, even offering up his futon for the two of us that night. We were lucky that he was there. So what do we do?

We celebrate. We went to this tiny bar with a pool table and a bar shuffleboard. Julie and I dominated! We beat these two really competitive tall guys. They said our height (especially my lack there of) was an advantage. Apparently tall people do not have a good view of the board. This random guy was really into it.

We dominated. That was fun. We had a great time at the bar. We did drink a bit much, but everyone made it out okay and home safely. Except for one thing. :)

Now before I go on with the story, I have to add a small disclaimer. I think in the past few years I have really learned to laugh at the little hiccups in the road. Sometimes you have to laugh while these things happen. Getting extremely upset is going to be completely useless, especially when there is very little in my control. I've learned to just kind of go with it. Thank goodness.

By the time I was ready to get back to the apartment for the evening and fairly intoxicated, my purse was no where to be found. All of our jackets and bags where stashed in one place. Everyone else came out with all of their stuff. My purse was just gone. They searched high and low in the bar. Nothing. The next morning when we all called, nothing.

So I'm in NYC with no purse, no money, no credit/debit cards and no Drivers License. Oh wait, I would have to fly home the next day? Without identification. This sounds fun.

To tell you the truth, we had to laugh. The whole trip was ridiculous enough that only this would happen with me, with all three of us at that moment in time. I was more worried about flying home. I canceled the cards. I didn't have much else in there aside from traveling cash. I spent most of the morning on the phone with banks and my parents (they got a lovely 4:15a phone call--- to be fair it was already 7:15 in NYC) to let them know. I was feeling pretty inconvenienced but this kind of thing has had to happen before. We did research.

----> By the time we left NYC, all I had left was a bag of chocolate chip pancakes, a camera, 50 cents, and my cell phone

So Julie ended up paying for everything else, including my checked bag this morning. She was definitely my hero in all those moments. I don't know what I would have done without her. Of course it was a Sunday and it would have been completely useless to try and over night anything, like my passport or other ID for my plane ride.

We finally made it back to Boston around 3p and attended a recital at 5. That gave us enough time to shower and put on clean clothes, thank goodness. I was getting pretty grimy. A couple of Julie's friends were performing in the recital. It was fun to see them sing and to be back in a sort of conservatory environment. The recital hall had great acoustics and the accompanist was brilliant. It was like listening to an entire orchestra come out of the piano. I'm pretty sure I probably stared with my mouth wide open and maybe even drooled a little. We went to dinner with one of Julie's friends who performed and relived our crazy day in NYC and debriefed on all the recital stuff. I hit the futon and was out probably by 10 or 10:30.

This morning we were up early and headed ot the airport. I was worried a little bit about making my flight and dealing with TSA with my serious lack of identification. Mom emailed me a scanned copy of my passport. Including that, I had a check book, a business card and the ticket that got me to Boston in the first place. All I had to do was mention that my purse was gone in NYC and all these Boston people understood. Pretty funny. They sort of shuffled me through the security line, patted me down and swabbed my bags. I was on my way and literally walked onto the plane.

For future experiences: if you have a police report/police documentation, TSA will accept that. Its sort of like bringing a doctor's note when you miss school.

The flight was fine, except that it was 30 minutes delayed due to high winds at Logan and when we did get to SFO, we circled the airport 3 times before landing. Julie gave me some spending money for a bottle of water and some snacks. I sat down, opened my water, took 2 sips and lost the bottle cap. Go figure. I did get some sleep on the flight.

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Hands down, this was the best trip I have ever taken. At least the top two. Although all this crazy stuff happened and I came home without a wallet, it was the best time. I loved all the talking and catching up that happened. I learned a lot. We laughed. Even the crazy stuff. It was worth laughing at as it happened. We would be sitting on the bus in silence and then just start laughing. Oh dear. As Julie and I discussed, we don't get to spend that kind of time together, so I guess we felt like we had to make it count.

And boy did we.

Boston Weekend 2010, Pt. 1

It all started with a water bottle.

This weekend, I flew out to Boston to see my best friend Julie. When I say "it all started with a water bottle," it did. I got to the airport with plenty of time to grab a bite to eat for the plane ride. I intended to stop for food at this cafe, grabbed a water bottle and then decided that I didn't want anything on the menu. So I kept looking. Unfortunately, as I ordered from a restaurant closer to my gate, I realized that I was still in fact holding said water bottle. Oops.

*first "oops" to appear in this post.

Contraband. Bad. I was mortified. I made it to Boston without any run-ins with the air marshals. So this whole trip was kind of like that meaning, I (we) had good intentions but sometimes things sort of become a hilarious disaster (foreshadow, maybe).

I hopped a cab over to Julie's after arriving. We were up pretty late just catching up and sort of talking about plans for the weekend. We watched some old videos from High School and just laughed.

Friday we were up early for class. I sat at the Starbucks with a coffee and newspaper until my co-intern Kari came into the city. I was so excited to spend the day with her. She ended up with some obstacles of her own which left me with some extra time. Once the rain let up, I decided

to just start walking. I walked almost 3 miles around Boston. It was wonderful to be in the city, kind of lost, just walking. The weather was okay. Overcast and definitely brisk. But it was perfect that way. I loved being in colder weather.

Kari and I met up and spent the day exploring. We went to the North Side and checked out the historic site of the Boston Molassacre and a couple of parts of the Freedom Trail, stopped for afternoon dessert at this wonderful little hole-in-the-wall place.

----> the plaque for the Boston Molassacre. It's sort of hard to find and easily missed if you aren't really looking for it.

We then high tailed it on the T over to Cambridge because we felt like it. We had the time before we were meeting Julie and Kari's husband for dinner back near Fenway.

<----I took a picture in front of the Harvard Band room for my sissy.

Anyhow, Dinner was great. And it was wonderful to go around the city with Kari. We had great adventures and I am so thankful that we got to see each other. It felt a little weird when I finished internship. She was such a big part of my internship experience. HopeAfter returning to Julie's apartment we decided that it would be great to head to Manhattan Saturday via the Chinatown bus and rush some broadway tickets.

What's the worst that could happen?

to be continued.....

Wine Stroll

I played at the Gilroy Wine Stroll this afternoon.

It was a ton of fun and it looks like I might get a couple of christmas party type gigs.

I think I have pretty much made up my mind about the vegas job opportunity... so expect an announcement regard that soon.

in the meantime, its Halloween weekend.

We are going to up my Aunt's house tonight for a halloween themed out door movie (hot dogs at 6!) and tomorrow I am up at Ty's for a Halloween party. My friend Aimee is coming down for the movie tonight. We are going to talk baseball among other things. Aimee is a die-hard A's fan and is rooting for the Rangers (of course!). I've now seen like 4 baseball games and think I am an expert on the sport. From what I've seen this afternoon (although I just got home from the Wine Stroll) the Rangers decided to show up to play baseball today. That's good. It makes the series more interesting.

Tomorrow's halloween party is a fictional will reading and wake from a fictional great Aunt. I am excited. I haven't seen ms. peaches since house sitting. We're due for some Auntie Lauren-Peaches time.

My trip to boston is next weekend! I am excited to see my best friend Julie and have some adventures. there is talk of a quick day trip up to NYC. Sounds exciting.

The weather is getting colder.... Thank goodness that November 1 is coming soon. Mom doesn't turn on the heat until November.

Sin City = Blisters

I have an owie on my toe from my shoes.

Surprisingly, this chronic over-packer brought just one pair for shoes for the 26 hours that I just spent in Vegas.

Let me just say that I loved staying on the Strip and doing my own little thing. I'd totally go back for fun, even though I don't really dig the whole gambling thing. But I really enjoyed the sensory stimulation and the Amazing food. Somehow, Dad and I manage to always eat really well when we're on "vacation."

The interview went really well! My experiential stuff was great. I can't say too much about it as I absolutely must uphold confidentiality. But I will say that it seemed like the one client that I interacted with really responded to the music. The therapist who normally works with this person seemed excited about the different experience and the way the client responded. It was a very positive experience.

Mostly I noticed how much I missed being in sessions with clients. Its a good thing to miss it- that means I am definitely in the right field. It just means that I am more motivated to get this figured out so that I can start working again.

I left with a good feeling after the interview, but it didn't really answer my questions. Instead it just kind of posed more questions. I left thinking that I just have more to think about.

Now I am calling meetings with the minds to flesh this thing out.

And off I go

Hi all,

I am off to Vegas for my interview.

A retreatant this weekend (a junior in high school) said that one of the things they learned this weekend was that, "Confidence is not a trait, its a choice."

So I choose to be confident in myself and abilities and just have some fun with it!

Quest 2010

Hey kids,

I have come down off the mountain and am still exhausted. It was a jam-packed and fast three days filled with great kids, fun events, and incredible talks. The student-senior leaders had amazing stories to share with the juniors and the group of other adult leaders (a couple of former teachers) were fantastic. The kids- the juniors- all took each thing seriously and I think really got something out it. I think that sometimes we are quick to judge high-schoolers. I do it, even though I am not much older. But all of these kids were so thoughtful and really opened up to the entire experience. It was truly an inspiring thing to see. A lot of great insights and sleepless nights. I averaged about 4.5 hours of sleep a night. The kids stayed up so late! Actually the last night we were there I spent chatting it up with the student-senior leader who led our small group. What a cool kid.

It was nice to go on this retreat- I went as a junior and led as a senior. Now I've seen it from the "adult" perspective. AND with my added experiences and training as a therapist, it was interesting to see these kids and to be able to read where they were in the process of the retreat. There were a lot of transformations. It was also fun to be the adult and talk about my experiences and have to shut kids up at like 2am. One girl was whispering in the halls about how she was going to go grab her goldfish for a snack and then proceeded to slam all of the doors. I remember doing the same thing and trying to be sneaky. The entire weekend was such a refreshing experience and I feel lucky that I was able to be there. I feel a little bit more confident in my abilities as I get ready for my interview. So I guess My Quest continues forward.

Anyhow, I spent most of yesterday afternoon taking a nap and then accompanied my mother to the Pintello Comedy Theater for a closing night show of this play called "The Love List." It was pretty funny. I enjoyed it. I also enjoyed the Giants game update before and during intermission. Everyone was really excited and cheering in the theater.

Our family doesn't normally watch sports- maybe the occasional football and hockey game- and never baseball. The last series with Philly has been something for me and my dad to talk about--- you know... with the 3.5 baseball games we've watched. :) we like to be experts on these things. Its been sort of exciting to follow the games in this philly series. I know that doesn't really make me a "real" fan. But its been fun to get into baseball for just a little bit.

Now that I'm catching up on my beauty sleep, I have to get into the right mindset for Las Vegas. Dad and I leave tomorrow morning. I have my interview in the afternoon. We'll be back Tuesday evening. I've got my writing portfolio mostly ready to go. I have my new business cards. I have some background information about the clients that I will interact with. I am very nervous. Its my first real job interview. I think my first interview, real interview, was applying for internships. Every job that I have worked started with some sort of connection. I am very nervous and I hope that it goes well. I think I am most nervous about interacting with their clients. I feel a little rusty, even though I have been playing almost every day. We'll see what happens. I know the Exec. Director of the agency very well and I know the other therapist there who is the Clinical Director. I feel better that I know them and feel comfortable in talking with them.. its just the actual experiential stuff. Sigh. I'm focusing on staying calm and being present. That will help.

I will update after my interview for sure. Dad's excited because we got 2 show tickets with our room. I don't know what time I will be done- I may have dinner with the Exec. Director after my interview. I am looking forward to that because I like the Exec. Director. That will be fun.

Thats all for now!

The start of a busy week

eck. I have been meaning to upload.

There are quite a few things happening in the next few weeks here.

Tomorrow I leave to help lead Quest, the Mitty junior retreat. I am very much looking forward to this. For a third time in my life, this retreat is coming at an excellent time. I am paired with a student senior leader from the campus ministry group. He sent me an email yesterday with a little bit about himself and a "Motroni was never clear on how I should address you... Ms. Bevilacqua? Lauren? A Nickname?"

Lauren works, but I told him he could call me anything but ma'am. :)

He sounds like a great kid and reminds me of a couple of kids that I went to school with.

I'm giving the Introduction and "what is a retreat" talk like right after the students get there and get settled. I'm excited. I've had many retreat experiences although none were like my first retreat. I'm going to talk about that and a little about my life when I was at Mitty and a little bit of my life now. At the end, I'm giving them two challenges for the weekend-- you know ways that could choose to use their time.

1. Listen. I think truly listening can be a difficult task. I'm always thinking about 27 different things and am prone to missing important details or waiting for the entire story. Listening is an important part of my work too as a therapist. But I think its important in a retreat environment too.

2. Get real. There's this show on MTV (and I'm embarrassed to admit that I've watched numerous episodes) where these people go to high schools and facilitate Challenge days. The point of challenge day is to challenge the students to see beyond the labels they give each other and the labels they take on personally. And in 30 minutes, the kids realize they have more similarities than differences despite the roles they play and the masks they wear. The challenge for the retreat is to take the risk to get a little real over the weekend.

I've been thinking a lot about what I am going to say and what points I absolutely need to make. But I think that these two sum it up.

And they are going to help me move forward next week too.

I'm taking a risk and I'm going out to Las Vegas for a job interview next week. I get to observe some sessions and interact with one of the therapists there to demonstrate my skill-set and see if this place is a good fit for me.

Dad is coming too. He's excited. He got a deal on one night at a hotel on the strip plus 2 show tickets. It was a great deal. I'm coming home the next day (after sitting in on a class that the executive director of the agency is teaching). I guess I'll know if LV is the kind of move I want to make as soon as I get there. We will see.

So I better look alive, listen and maybe take a few risks.

Now I have to get out of bed and eat something. I'm thinking Los Pericos. Its been awhile since I've had a burrito. I can actually open my mouth wide enough to take medium sized bites. Its definite progress. Oh Yeah- Wisdom teeth-- everything is fine. I'm feeling 0 pain now and can chew food even! Its been very exciting.

Gearing up for ravioli season.... Holly... that's your invitation!

Oh yeah... and Go Giants!

recovery

i've got my jamba juice and a long spoon plus my drugs and ice packs.... so I'm a relatively happy camper.

I dont have a whole lot of swelling yet, but its pretty uncomfortable.

My appointment was fine! I don't remember much, but I'm told it went well and I don't have ot go back unless there is a problem.

so that's good.

back to my jamba and nap!

Wisdom

I'm getting my tooth surgically extracted today.

I am excited to have an acceptable reason to eat pudding for breakfast, lunch, & dinner.

Hopefully my wisdom will not also be surgically extracted today.

Speaking of wisdom, I have some sad news.

I posted a link a while ago about a music therapy friend whose daughter has a rare skin condition. She was undergoing a BMT clinical trial in Minnesota. Talk about wisdom. She has taught so much to everyone who has followed her journey. Unfortunately, last night, her journey ended as her heart and body gave out. She didn't give up, she never gave up.

You can read about her incredible journey here:

http://careforanabella.blogspot.com/

Dear Starbucks barista

Dear young and attractive Starbucks Barista,

Thank you for calling me "miss" today. Since when is 23 grounds for saying "ma'am?"

Love,

Lauren

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I ran to the store this morning to replace some food items and grabbed a cup coffee at the neighborhood bux.

I'm settling down in the office which I don't think Peach likes too much. She's whining at me because I'm not paying attention to her.

How can you say no to this face?

progress

well. What a difference a day makes.

I have put together a preliminary powerpoint presentation and started drafting my proposal for the conference. For some reason I am really struggling with the description, even though I know what information I am including. Its not really flowing the way that I want it to and it doesn't really sound like a typical session that you might find at a one-day student conference. I'm considering applying for the other concurrent sessions- you know for the big kids. The professionals. I realize that I am a professional now too: Lauren F. Bevilacqua, MT-BC, but I'm nervous about presenting this information and still feeling like a student. I'm a young professional. Not a seasoned one. Not many therapists practice what I'm going to be presenting on but then again some heavy hitters in our field and this approach to therapy may be in attendance; I certainly don't want to look like a doof.... a young kid fresh out of internship with no other real life practical experience (Although presumably I'd have a job by then). Sigh.

I think I'm thinking about this too much.

I think I've put together a pretty good presentation. It definitely is a lot different than some of the other presentations I've seen done at the student-one day conference. I think students will find it interesting, especially for those who have never seen this type of therapy in action. I will have video clips which is certainly a plus. I don't remember the last session I went to that had actual session clips. I think I just need to get my confidence up-- you know, believe in my skills and what I learned in my internship. So maybe I will apply to both the student one-day and the concurrent sessions. We'll see what happens. The worst they can say is No. And that's no big deal.

based on some advice, I am stepping away from my proposal for at least a day and let it sit for a while. Its been 2 days of major progress. I need a break. ;)

Actually I have other things to focus on. I'm having dinner with a former teacher from high school to talk about my role in the retreat that is coming up. So maybe I'll take my break and think about the things I want to say--- you know, as an "adult" leader.

Okay- well, I'll take my break and take peaches for an evening walk.

ugghh

That's the sound I make when I have to get up off the couch.

House/dog sitting is going well. It's pretty quiet around here, especially when the pooch is napping.I might nap too.

I have reading and a conference proposal to do, but I can't seem to motivate myself to actually work on it. Any tips for self-motivation?

I have officially signed on to do the junior retreat at my high school. I'm going to be an "adult" leader. and I am getting my wisdom tooth extracted on Tuesday. I am looking forward to a diet of yoghurt and jamba juice.

well, I think I will take a nap. I still love being on vacation.

And I'm back

Gosh, I had a lovely time in LA.

I hung with my friend and her little baby boy for a few days and then drove down to Orange and saw my old roommate from Santa Ana and spent time with him. Gosh it was fun. We just chatted and snacked and hot tubbed and watched one of our favorite movies. It was great to see him and see his parents. I loved them dearly. I ended up going to chapman and seeing friends. It turned out to be an extremely positive experience. I saw a bunch of friends and old professors. I think now that I am done with school and have my MT-BC that I was able to focus on all of the fantastic memories I had while going to school there.

I had a chance to have lunch with a former music therapy professor while visiting. This professor also owns a company that provides services to people with disabilities. Its inspiring to hear about how the company has grown and expanded. I guess some places are still hiring full time music therapy positions. It seems like there is more need to create your own job. especially now. I'm still trying to decide

I was talking to a friend of mine who told me to reflect on what I want in a job-- things like "I want to be treated with respect-- with respect of my person and time and abilities" - that kind of stuff. I think it will be a good exercise in trying to decide what I want.

I did decide, today in fact, that I want to network with music therapists in the area. I have to figure out how to find them. :) I think I will sent out a few e mails. I do love sending emails. I haven't heard of many around here. I'm not exactly sure why, but I am determined to find a few. Maybe I'll email some friends on the regional board to see where I should start.

Anyhow, I am going to be house sitting soon which is going to provide me some time to work on a presentation proposal for a music therapy conference. I think Peaches, the dog I'm sitting, can help me out with that... or at least provide comic relief.

That's it for now. I drove a lot today! (22 to 405 to 605 to 210 to 5) and I am exhausted. Time for bed.

Forgot to mention

My certificate arrived in the mail today. Doesn't it look official?

Twas the night before...

I leave for LA.

I've got all my gifts and presents set to go- and they are even semi-wrapped. Everybody has a bag. My mother always taught me to never go anywhere empty handed. I think I'll bring a plate of brownies too- but I'll wait until late tonight to bake them. Its way too hot to turn the oven on.

I am excited to get down to see my friend and her family. We're going to try and see a former professor too. Its fun to get together with our old prof now as we both transferred from Chapman. She is a hoot and a half and I am excited to see her in person. She was instrumental in getting me to Arizona and beyond. She is also so fun to spend time with. Hopefully Casey and I will get to visit with her among other things. I think we're going to go out one night, sort of "girls -night" and of course a cooking lesson (I'll be teaching).

I am also going to have the chance to get down to Orange to see my roommate from Chapman. He's a great guy and I adore his parents, so I am excited to see them. I haven't seen him since I moved to Arizona... I think its been like 2 years. Jon is just one of my best guy friends. He's just a true friend-- you know, one of those people who I can just pick up where we left off no matter how long its been. I am excited to see him later in the week. I'll probably get back up to Gilroy on Thursday.

I don't think I'll get to the chapman campus- I guess I could drop in on people to say hello. Most of the time when I've visited the campus its been more of a bitter experience. Maybe there is still a little bit of hurt there from everything that went down. No matter. It doesn't really matter what Jon and I do- it will be fun regardless.

No other progress on the job front. I am still enjoying the vacation time for sure. Time is passing quickly though. I am housesitting next week and getting my wisdom tooth extract the week after that! Soon it'll be november and time for my boston trip! I can't wait. Its been nice to have some time off to sleep in, visit friends, read fun books, and putz around town. Its refreshing to come back to Gilroy after being away for extended periods of time. I've lived here all of my life- and while its true that there is little to do around here- I love being home and enjoying life at a slower pace... at least for a little while. :) its kind of like being at Cheers, where everybody knows your name.

I am, for the first time ever, taking the white car on my little road trip. I have driven the X5- Annabelle- since my sophomore year at Chapman. I guess times have changed and now I will drive the white car. I'll have to get around without GPS and without a voice telling me (in a snotty tone) "Please make a legal U-turn." Annabelle and I have gotten into a shouting match many times. :) She thinks she knows everything. Anyhow, its just me and my ipod tomorrow for the drive. I am looking forward to it. Hopefully I won't get lost or leave my purse anywhere (damn Ohio). I am so excited to get down south and will certainly update when I return- probably with photos! Yahoo.

Safe travels everyone.

opportunity

I had a lovely chat today with someone who is looking to hire music therapists in the Western Region. This person sent me a message to give her a call if I was interested in some employment opportunities, so I decided to give it a go.

It was a very encouraging phone conversation. I got the sense that she is definitely willing to work with my timeline - with all my trips and various commitments throughout the month of October. Sooooo we'll see what comes of this. I am currently trying to schedule an onsite visit to see the facility and meet everyone. I need to see how it feels before jumping right in.

In the meantime, I'm awaiting the arrival of my good friend from high school. She's coming down to Gilroy tonight (the white car is still being worked on) to grab a bite to eat and hang out for a bit. Being without car also means that my LA trip has been postponed for a day or so.

Hmm... lots of stuff happening. It's kind of exciting!

Driving Miss Daisy

My parents think its important that I really learn how to drive a stick shift.

I can do it, I just don't have the practice.

So today, my mother encouraged me to drive the volkswagon to my doctor's appointment. I did well, except that I stalled one time on Third and Wren. Its so stupid. I can't seem to get into first from a complete stop smoothly. Eck. I stalled again getting into the driveway. It was pretty hilarious. So, I suppose my new project is to just practice. I did drive all over town- to my appointment and out to the bank and back (plus an extra lap around the block).

On the tooth front- I have just one wisdom tooth and he's going to extract it in a few weeks. yipee. He's a nice guy and was interested in music therapy- or at least a quick definition. That was nice. The person who took my blood pressure and explained the procedure was really nice and obviously loves her job. What a hoot.

Btw, Kari, my co-intern, passed her certification exam today!!!! WOOOOO HOOOO Kari, MT-BC!

After such an eventful day, I believe I deserve a little afternoon nap!

Clearly behind...

I haven't updated in a while. I know.

I have been enjoying my vacation and down time especially since my test is done and passed. I have been productive in pulling together my resume, I just ordered some new business cards AND I'm starting to pool together some resources for a marketed folder to bring to potential employers.

Soooo I'm trying to balance the fun and still move forward. Once my resume is done (especially my resume) I am going to start contacting facilities in the area. I have a couple in mind. We'll see what happens. I also have a potential opportunity somewhere to gain experience

I am getting excited for the next few weeks. Here's what is up on the agenda:

LA Trip - later this week! I'm visiting my best friend from Chapman. She recently had a little baby boy and I haven't seen her since her wedding. I am excited to head down there and spend a few days.

House/Dog sitting- Early October. I'll be watching a friend's dog and house while they are away on vacation for a week or so. I am looking forward to that.

Junior Retreat- Mid October. I am really looking forward to going on the retreat. Its going to be different leading this retreat as an adult. I'm looking forward to a fresh point of view and to see which parts of the retreat will resonant with me now-- a whole 5-6 years later.

Boston Trip - Early November. I booked my tickets to go see my best friend Julie in Boston. I am very excited. I will also be able to see my co-intern while I am out there.

Those are the big things. I am able to get together with a bunch of old high school friends while I am home as well. That has been fun too.

Oh. Tomorrow I get to go see an oral surgeon about a wisdom tooth. I have just one. They found just one. 23 years and not a word about my wisdom teeth. Until last week. So I have a consult tomorrow to see if they have to be extracted. We'll see what happens.

That's the update for now. I will keep you all posted of opportunities and adventures that I run into. I'm looking to build a list of potential agencies and facilities for pitching music therapy programs in the area. If you have any ideas, resources, or connections let me know!

I Passed!!!

WOOOO HOOOO!

I passed my exam and am officially a Board Certified Music Therapist.

Now I just have to practice signing my name:

Lauren F. Bevilacqua, MT-BC